Saturday, November 6, 2010

Thanksgiving

Greeted by the aroma
Of sage and cinnamon
Coffee and cake, turkey and herbs,
Potatoes and yams,
Comfort and joy.
Woodsmoke and leaves,
Clear sky, fresh air.
Welcome home.
Embrace, sit,
Holds hands and say grace.
Thank you God for . . .
Words tumble end over end,
Then awed silence.
Gratitude.
Bright sunlight until twilight.
Candlelight.
Thankful to be together.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Be a Rose

I enjoy visiting estate homes such as Reynolda House or Biltmore Estate.  I am always intrigued by the creativity of the décor.  It is fun to imagine the grand parties of years ago.  And I especially enjoy seeing the kitchen and the servants’ quarters.  It makes me thankful for the conveniences we have.

Of course, many such tours include a visit to the gardens, always the least interesting part of a home tour to me.  I’m not much of a botanist, so hearing about the myriad varieties of lily or iris cultivated on the estate rarely holds my attention.

But I do remember one garden tour that made quite an impression on me, where I was introduced to a rare variety of violet.  As we stood in that muggy greenhouse, the man in the official-looking cargo shorts told us about the plant, its usual habitat, and other facts.  All the while, he touched the tender leaves, almost absent-mindedly while he continued to look at each of us.  But as he touched the violets, a most unusual thing happened: the blooms closed.  It was as if they were hiding, ducking for cover.  After a moment, each would reopen, until the gardener touched them again.  He invited each of us to do the same, which we eagerly did.  After a while, the blooms would close not only at our touch, but upon our approach.  It looked like they were wincing.  It turns out that this is the plant’s only defense mechanism as it grows quietly on the jungle floor.

Most of us know how that feels.  We have been bumped or bruised, on the job, by friends or family, at church. People have hurt us without even meaning to, without realizing it.  But that doesn’t make it hurt less.  And after a while, we learn to distrust people, and we forget how to stand up for ourselves.  We don’t let anyone get too close.  It’s just easier that way. 

I probably don’t strike many people as shy, but I can tell you that at one time I hid.  It was my only defense.  I became a violet.  Maybe you have, too.

But I have learned recently that I was not made to be a violet.  What I was meant to be is a rose.  A rose is beautiful, strong, and able to protect itself.  A rose stands tall and proud in the sunlight.  It has thorns to protect itself from injury – and the fact that everyone knows that roses have thorns is in itself a wonderful defense.  People automatically handle roses with care.  Yet a rose will draw people to it with its beauty and the promise of sweetness.  The first thing most people do when they see a rose is stick their nose in the middle and inhale deeply.  Hey, I’ll even stop to smell the plain commercial roses at the grocery store in hopes that they will smell like something other than a freezer case.  And each rose is unique, even if they all grow on the same bush.

That’s the way we should be.  So sure in our beauty, proud of who we are, confident in what we have to offer.  Think of the gifts you have been given, the talent or skill.  Stand tall, open up, invite people in, and know that you deserve to be handled with care.  You have a lot to share with those around you.  Don’t save it for yourself.  Don’t be a shrinking violet.  Be a rose.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Coming Home (IV)

Your favorite places
My favorite memories
Regrets of lives spent apart
Separated by time zones
And more
United by genes
And much more
(Love)
Getting to know you
Learning your rhythms
And getting into step with the family.
We collapse to the floor in laughter
Or snuggle up close in a quiet moment
Then come to the table
Filled with a bounty that promises
A long time together.
As I sit,
Surrounded by those I love,
I know
I am home.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Big Faith

That Christmas when you were six
Was the last time you visited Santa.
We waited,
Humming stale carols to musak
In a line that seemed miles long
Until your turn finally came.
You were hoisted up into that velvet lap
So you could whisper wishes
To a bearded stranger you believed
Could make them all come true.
You asked for the world,
Or at least, the world of a child.
“All the toys.”
Not specific toys.
All of them.
I made a motherly mistake
And assumed you were greedy in your wish
And in your response on Christmas morning
When you asked with genuine surprise
“Is this all?”
You had thought it a reasonable request.

That New Year’s when you were twelve
Was the first time I began to see
The man of faith you already are.
We waited,
Singing new choruses with the band
In a service that seemed hours long.
At last our turn came.
We sat on folding chairs
While you spoke your need
To faithful friends you trusted
Would pray for your healing.
“In time for his birthday,” I qualified.
“Now,” you corrected.
To me, it would mean the world.
To you, it seemed a reasonable request.
And you were right.
Healing was yours that night.

Anyone who meets you
Soon learns what I have come to understand –
That any outrageous request
Is perfectly reasonable
When you have big faith.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Coming Home (II)

Miles of highway fall behind me
As I push ahead
Up the mountain.
The steep incline and tight turns
Slow me down.
I steal
Quick glances right and left,
Hoping to see beyond these trees.
Eyes forward –
Another curve.
I try to be patient
As I wonder
Which side road is mine to take.
Finally,
I see it
And turn with relief onto a straighter path.
Only a little further.

I park the car and step out
Stretch, and look around me.
There they are,
The hills I have longed for.
They roll out from me like waves
In the ocean-blue sky.
A breeze brushes me,
The sun warms me,
The scent of pine trees welcomes me,
And I am home.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Coming Home (I)

Here
Above the clouds
I am surrounded by a sky
As blue as the lakes I have missed.
Checkerboards of green
So fresh
From a winter’s worth of melted snow.
I can already feel
The breeze from the prairie
Stirring a field of young corn
Row after row
In rich, dark soil.
The ground rushes up to meet me
And I am home.

**I can hardly wait to head back home to Minnesota for a visit.  It has been too long.**

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Buzz

A thousand stresses
Buzzing about in my mind
Like gnats in my yard.