Useless

Thirty years of loyalty to the company

Forced into early retirement to save money

Twenty years of faithfulness to the husband

Discover evidence of the other woman

Teen years spent in obedience rather than rebellion

Rejected by backsliding parents

Entire morning mopping and waxing the floors

Mud tracked in by careless children

Unspoken

When you roll over

            You want me to scratch your back.

When I nudge your arm

            You put it around me.

When you go to the den

            You need to be alone.

When I go to the kitchen

            I want to be creative. 

I know when you want

            A banana sandwich

            More tea

            Affirmation.

You known when I need

            An extra compliment

            Ice cream

            A hug.

I say the things your heart should hear. 

You listen to my heart

            When I don’t say a word.

You love me.

I love you.

Don’t speak!

These things can be unspoken 

For they have been whispered

Through the years.

Psalm 84:12-10

Blessed am I if I trust in You

Even when You seem

So far away,

Because You’re right beside me,

Whispering my name.

Blessed am I if I trust in You

Even when You are silent.

You’re not ignoring me –

Just waiting for me to

Strike up a conversation.

Blessed am I if I trust in You

Even when You withhold

Some thing from me,

And I pout like a child,

For You only give me the best.

Blessed am I if I trust in You

Even when I have

No strength to move,

For through my weakness

You are teaching me to dance.

Sis

You are in my very soul

The sister I always wanted

Always had

But never saw.

So far apart

Yet closer than any two could be.

Mannerisms

Favorite things

Ways that, for most, are learned

By being side by side,

But are innate in us.

I often wonder

What my life would have been

Had we shared a bedroom

Breakfast each morning

Hugs and kisses when needed

Even the occasional bickering.

Wondering doesn’t change reality.

We share hugs online

And blow kisses over the phone.

But I do know

That I couldn’t love you more

Than I do right now

Even from way over here.